I opened this blog back in October 2015 but didn’t write my introductory post until 3 weeks later. After joining a Blogging 101 course I wrote my first post, But let me first write an introduction. The title was a play on the song #Selfie… In case you didn’t pick up on that. My blog is now in its sixth month of activity and I never imaged it would go so well. The response from you my fellow readers and bloggers has been more than I ever thought it would be and I am grateful that you have continued with me on this journey of self-exploration.
I have felt in recent months I have been questioning myself on whether or not I am “blogging right.” Sometimes I post things from my past because they are always there… and other times I am happy as a clam just shooting the shit about my day. I worried that I had no focus. One post I am talking about my abusive past and in the next I am discussing the importance of body positivity. For me the two are interconnected and I cannot tell one without the other. This made me realize, during my reflections, that I am doing just fine.
My blog is truly a reflection on my passing moods. This may seem obvious to some but I guess I just needed to spell it out for myself. Some days I am happy. Some days I am anxious. Some days my mood is down. Some days I am neutral. My writing and choice of topics reflect that. I write because a memory is dredged up by a word prompt, an image, or a song I heard. You are getting my raw feelings I am wrestling with by an article I may have read, a conversation I overheard, or my interactions with people at work and in the world in general.
I’ve been beaten down physically and emotionally and I’ve been recovering like a champ. I set out to tell my story to hopefully inspire someone or offer support through my experiences. We connect with each other through our words and interactions and it has been a beautiful experience. A few times I wanted to give up and throw in the blogging towel but I have been rejuvenated by my realizations. My roller coaster of thoughts is sticking around and hopefully for your continued enjoyment.
Anyone else wrestle with this or am I ridiculous?