Well this is it. Today I begin first day of my last semester as a masters student for the second time. It is just as overwhelming now as it was the first time… however you’d think I’d be a thesis writing expert by now. Honestly I was irritated that I have to write another one. Not because I don’t think I can do it or handle it… rather it is because my program initially gave me a waiver. I was grated permission to substitute the capstone with another class but the person who agreed to this is not around at the moment. I was told I could do an independent study instead but I didn’t feel like dealing with the hassle of finding a professor to work with me last minute so capstone it is.
I can’t really complain can I? They graciously allowed me back into the program without a fight despite my GPA barley hugging the 3.0 line thanks to a couple of C’s caused by missing finals for two of my classes…. ugh… anyway I truly am grateful to be in this position just overwhelmed. When I was working on my history thesis it took me more than one semester. This paper needs to be finished in a single semester. I know I can do it. I am a researching pro.
See… I’ve already begun to compile my book collection for the literature review!
I think this will make a good series of posts… character evaluations… why in the hell do I become attached to some characters… and on rare occasions before I know too much about them. I’m confused… so lets figure it out.
This post may include Spoilers for the new Suicide Squad film so you have been warned! Continue reading
There is a debate currently going on one of the Facebook groups I’m a part of on whether or not leggings are pants. I personally think they are. I mean what else can they be? They aren’t tights. They are too thick for that. To me wearing leggings under a dress or skirt feels too bulky.
However, I would never tell people how to wear their clothes. This one girl is trying to tell people that there are rules to wearing leggings. You must wear a top that goes past your butt. She claimed she is tired of seeing people’s privates. Continue reading
I saw yesterday that the daily word prompt was moon so I knew I had to write something. However something happened that doesn’t normally happen… I was a bit busy at work. Anyway.. the reason for this need is because I’ve always loved the moon. I have said time and time again that if I wasn’t afraid of tattoos I would get that lovely heavenly body on my lovely heavenly body! Alas I am terrified of the pain and also the permanence of a tattoo. Continue reading
What I am about to tell you is complicated… but I can no longer carry this weight. I had a long talk with my therapist yesterday about this. It has been a great problem for me and catapulted my depression to my breaking point back in 2014. The constant crying day and night. It didn’t matter if I was at work or home. The feeling of never being happy. The fear of never realizing my goals in life. Bogged down in what felt like inescapable debt that I saw no way out of. The anger I had towards the person who I blamed for all my problems… and rightfully so… yet at the same time realizing that I allowed everything that happened to me. I felt at the time that his way was the only way. The only way I could survive. Do what he says. Limit the confrontation. Stay in one piece. Reality was that I was shattered and when all was said and done I couldn’t talk about it anymore. Continue reading
Not worth it. You’ll be much happier once you learn to let go. Something I need to tell myself often.
Anxiety kicked my ass this weekend. Today I had the day off from work for a blood work appointment. I decided to have a me day where I practiced self care. I dyed my hair because my wisdom stripes were out of control and I played with makeup even though I have no where to go! Results?