Partner is by definition a person who comes together with another person in an undertaking with a shared outcome. By moving in together that is exactly what we did. I often fret about whether or not I am holding my even share in this wonderful venture. Living with him as been one of the easiest things I have ever done. It feels natural like I was always suppose to be here… in this place… creating our home and building our lives.
Yet I am nagged by the fact that I can’t remember the last time I cooked something. My guess would be around last December. Yet I never go hungry. Even when he is not around the leftovers sustain me until his return. I am not kidding. This past week I made a fritta and Brussels sprouts stretch four days! I am tired of eggs, but I didn’t have to buy any of the overpriced food they try to sell around where I work. And when he is home… my dinner is always packed and ready to go for the next day. I am hardly around during the week between my hours and the time it takes to commute back and forth. He has made this work transition so seamless for me.
However, I really should cook on the weekends when I am home. I really should. But then does things like making pizza or BBQ chicken. It’s soooooo good. I can’t compete with his kitchen skills. Flavors come natural to him. He can wing something and it will be a party in my stomach. He says he loves to cook and I am forever grateful for that… but I don’t want him to feel like he always HAS to cook. I know my way around a kitchen just not as well. I try to compensate for my lack of cooking by keeping up with the laundry, dusting, and vacuuming…. the last two I been slacking on due to the fact I hate dust and there is cat hair EVERYWHERE. Yet that is only one day a week. His underwear may be clean but I eat everyday! Then again he does wear clean clothes everyday… it’s the same thing right?
I should stop being paranoid about my lack of cooking hours. I should take my solace in the fact that if he didn’t like something he wouldn’t do it. I should believe that I do in fact bring my fair share to this relationship. I’ve done a lot of growing in the past two years. I fixed my credit. I have a back account even though I hate banks. I am not longer miserable at work because I found a job in the path I have chosen as my career. It’s not perfect but nothing ever is really. Most importantly, to me anyway, I am in a healthy relationship with the man I love and want to spend the rest of my days. Yet I can’t kick these dam insecurities. I feel like a character that is having trouble developing!
…Pretty soon we tie the knot!
This is a story about a Girl who has this friend that tells her about a Boy
Girl lets friend give Boy her number
Boy texts girl and they talk
Boy invites Girl out for coffee and Girl agrees
Boy and Girl meet and Girl has a great time
Girl panics because she really likes Boy
Boy keeps talking to Girl and plans romantic dates
Girl knows that Boy is someone special
Girl falls for Boy and knows immediately he is the one
Boys also realizes Girl is awesome and he shouldn’t let her go
Girl and Boy continue to hang out and spend every free moment together
Girl and Boy eventually move in together
Life is easy as Girl and Boy get along so well
Everything feels right in Girl’s world
Girl’s life makes sense and is finally happy
Boy tells Girl he wants to get married
Girl agrees and Boy now also happy!
Girl really really loves Boy 😍😙
On a more positive less stressful note, this past weekend I celebrated two years together with the love of my life. He surprised me with a beautiful classic black bag from Michael Kors and a yummy edible arrangement with chocolate covered strawberries and chocolate hearts.
Then we went out to a nice dinner in NYC at a steakhouse called Del Frisco’s. Soooo good I want to go back again!
Before all this on Valentine’s Day he made me chocolate heart shaped pancakes… I’m starting to see a chocolate trend yummy!
I’m forever grateful to have him as my partner for life. The love he shows me is an everyday thing not just on the required holidays. I know that whatever happens he will always be there to listen to me vent, allow me to cry on his shoulder, protect me from harm, and feed me good food! They say when you meet the one you just know and I just know I’ll love him everyday forever and ever
I’m entering a marathon y’all! No not the running type the blogging type. There is a quick 10 post challenge I stumbled across this morning over at Its PH blog called the Incredible Blogger Marathon Challenge. Continue reading
People who assume
People who treat others crappy but somehow the person who feels crappy is the one at fault for feeling the way they do
Adults who act like children
People who tell you what you want to hear
I’m taking a nap now.
Since I shot down the idea that taking a selfie is narcissistic let’s look at what a narcissist actually is! Google is a wonderful tool for getting information quickly. So I tapped into my search “what is a narcissist” and one of the top searches was this blog post written by Susan Heitler Are You a Narcissist? 6 Sure Signs of Narcissism. Continue reading
I spend so much time talking about my first ex I want to talk a bit about my second. This is an overview of the issues. Feel free to ask questions and express interest in anything you’d like me to expand upon first! Continue reading