Wedding dress sizes
There is no greater time to ignore a size than when you are shopping for a wedding dress. I have said it once and I’ll say it again… the number on your clothes does not and will not ever define you! Yet no matter how hard I try to apply my words to myself; I will admit there was a punch to my self-esteem as I was squeezing into a dress two sizes bigger than my everyday clothes. I ended up asking the same question I am sure tons of other brides asked. Why do these dresses run so small? So I googled it.
Good evening all!
What an exciting day! It was my last day at a job that brought me a great deal of agony. I am a bundle of nerves and happiness as I prepare to start my career on Monday.
I wore a cheerful bright orange-red today to celebrate my departure. For some reason it still does not feel real. I am thinking it might on Monday as I pull up to the new place.
I still can’t believe I made it to this point. Finally I get to call myself a librarian! Dreams do come true 🙂
Yesterday I made a change. I went to a hair salon and walked out sporting a new look for the first time in forever.
I walked in wearing red shorts and a tank top with flip flops on. Hair a mix of dark brown and gray with frizz all over. Basically my everyday look! I knew that look. I was used to it. It was me.
I sat in this chair for over 2 hours between getting my hair painted and waiting for it to set.
I decided to get an ombre and balayage in caramel. There are also hints of red in the sunlight.
I walked out three and a half hours later unrecognizable. All of a sudden I felt different and oddly enough underdressed. I felt not fancy enough for my hair. Maybe it was my way of convincing myself to buy a new wardrobe! Still though what a strange thought! That’s my brain for you.
You know what though I felt like I needed this. Everyday I change a little but for the better. I’m thousands of feet in front of where I used to be. I couldn’t be more proud of myself.
I’m loving my new look! This is what it would look like if I were a twin. Double awesomness!
There is a debate currently going on one of the Facebook groups I’m a part of on whether or not leggings are pants. I personally think they are. I mean what else can they be? They aren’t tights. They are too thick for that. To me wearing leggings under a dress or skirt feels too bulky.
However, I would never tell people how to wear their clothes. This one girl is trying to tell people that there are rules to wearing leggings. You must wear a top that goes past your butt. She claimed she is tired of seeing people’s privates. Continue reading
Sometimes being a fat person is not easy. People seem to think it is okay to dislike you and judge you purely on the fact that you carry more weight then they do. Other people think that just looking at you is a great barometer for how healthy you are and therefore, because they are thinner and obviously healthier, can also judge you. It also seems as though this type of discrimination is not even all that frowned upon. My full appreciation goes out to all the fat activists out there trying to make the world a better place for us who carry a little extra but are still awesome people!
I don’t know about you but some things used to have this aura of exclusivity. For example, I feared the gym because I was fat… I feared boys because I was fat… I feared dresses, skirts, shorts, capris, and anything sleeveless because I was fat… and this post is dedicated to one of my all time fears that I have kicked right in the ass… The beach! It will no longer just feel like a sanctuary for the skinny!
My apologies I know I have been a pretty shitty blogger as of late. The reason for this is I was taking a website coding class in June and currently a public library law class that ends August 15th. I haven’t done school since 2013 so I was getting my study legs under me. The classes are online which is a whole other animal than having to attend in person. You really have to be self-regulating. I got an A in the first one and I am hoping for the same results in the second. Rest assured I have a few drafts pending that I will be posting this week. Topics such as bariatric surgery, being plus-sized at the beach, anonymity of the internet, insecurities, and open ex letters! However, today I want to discuss my foray into wannabe modeling! Continue reading